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At 10:02 am Thursday January 28, 2010

my wonderful grandmother died.

maybe I'll have more to say when I'm not so numb.

Chills.

Every time I see this scene - tears & chills.

Friendships

Over the past few months I've been contemplating a concept that is perhaps a simple one.

A concept that is really simple, not easy. (There is a difference)

I've been confronted with the idea of what a friend is and what that means in my life.

I looked up the official definition - just so we're all clear on what we're discussing... Or I guess I'm discussing with the wide open void that my thoughts go and rest.

This is what I found:

friend (frend)

noun:

1. a person attached to another by feelings or affection or personal regard

2. a person who gives assistance; patron; supporter.

3. a person who is on good terms with another; a person who is not hostile.

4. a member of the same nation, party, etc.

as a verb (used with object):

5. Rare. to befriend

Idiom:

6. make friends with, to enter into friendly relations with; become a friend to.

and then some of the synonyms are:

comrade, chum, crony, confidant, aquaintance, backer, advocate, ally, associate, confrere, compatriot.

So how are we doing? Are we on the same page now?

Throughout the 22 (almost 23) years of my life, I would say that I've been blessed with amazing friends - some come to stick around and others leave. I would consider myself very lucky with the experiences that I've had, and the amazing people that have been brought into my life. Every once in a while there is a special friend that comes along, someone you can be yourself with, who understands you 110% and doesn't suck you dry of your energy.

Among the friends I've had in my life I've had Very few people who I consider to be a

True friend.

Do you ever get tired of always putting yourself "out there" for other people - only to have them put you on a shelf & treat you as "expendable?"

I've been struggling because even though I thought I'd been meticulous in choosing who would be allowed to get close to me again after all the fiasco friendships I've had - I once again found myself wondering if I was forgetting something in the definition of friend.

That's when I looked it up. lol

I bolded and italicized some of the descriptions that I really resonate with -

I definitely believe that a Friend is rare.

They are someone who you can confide in - and then trust.

Support is a must.

Ally.

A true friend is someone who you want to be associated with...

I'm sorry if I sound like I'm rambling. I've been struggling on figuring out how to get it out into the world of my blog - maybe my brain will stop festering and mulling everything over.

That's the point of a blog right??

What I want to say is that I'm SOOO thankful for my amazing friends, who are there to support me, trust me & who I can trust, back me up, who believe in me and who are there to give me a hug, discuss things from photography to our love of food, play wii with us, listen, dream along with us, call me, text me, twitter or skype me - Thank you for showing up and just being there. Thank you for loving me, bumps & bruises, tears & flaws, laughs & obsessions... and Like me.

Thanks.

Get Healthy!!!!

time for a nap

Really.

I'm tired.

The saying - When it rains, it pours.

Its never been more true.

I wish I had patience.

I wish I could fast forward time.

goodnight. i'm tired.

Rainy Day

This morning I woke up to the sound of the rain dripping through the leaves in the front of the house.

It made me smile.

I put on sweatpants and my old senior year sweatshirt,

went into the kitchen and made hot tea.

I've been working on my computer all day,

with Booth snuggling on my feet - keeping me warm.

The window is wide open so I can hear the pouring rain,

I miss this weather so much.

I can't wait to live in Seattle.

I need rain.

I need cloudy days where it is totally allowed to bundle up in blankets,

drink hot tea,

snuggle with my 100 pound fluff pot dog,

watch good movies

and just soak up life.

I love today.

My Child.

Ok so I don't have kids.

I have a 100 pound golden retriever,

who is like my child.

A lot of people don't get consider animals as

a part of the family.

Well we do.

They have feelings and emotions

& QUITE the personality.

Here's proof.

So the other day Charlie and I were going to see my parents

Booth gets the back of the Mini as his "seat."

Charlie pulled out the camera and started taking pictures.

The first one:

Then Mr. Man realized the camera was on him,

he must have her the "click"

and this is what he did...

Ya... he LOVES the camera.

ALOT.

Cutest. Face. Ever.

That's my child.

Inspiration

As many of you know, Charlie and I are DREAMERS…and therefore we’re trying to look at the positive things that we want in our future. Over the last few months Charlie and I have been working on a little project. I fully believe that everything happens for a reason and because the last few months have been… challenging – we were looking for a way to motivate ourselves & this idea came up. After writing out our “bucket lists,” we went through magazines and advertisements, found tons of pictures of things that represented these dreams we want in our lives.

Dream –noun:an aspiration; goal; aim:

So here’s our hard work, all put together… we’ll be adding to it as we keep on dreaming.

We put it up in our room, so every morning we can start the day off by remembering what it is that we’re working towards.

Can you find one of my favorite pieces?? Lol

New Day, New Month, New Year & a New Decade

I can't believe how much has changed last year.

2009:

I graduated from college

Booth had his first birthday

We started a business

Moved... twice

I went to a photography workshop & fell in love with my hobby even more.

Charlie took his MCAT & applied to Medical Schools

We celebrated 2 years of marriage.

Built a snowman with Charlie

in 2010:

Charlie is graduating from college

Booth will turn 2 & we'll be getting a new puppy :)

Our business is going to skyrocket

We're moving, away... up North

I'm starting my photography business

We'll find out where Charlie is going to Medical School

We'll be married for 3 years

and will be spending Christmas & New Years in London and Paris.

It's going to be a good year.