help?

46 days left and I'm so overwhelmed that if feels like a million. 

This last weekend's stress just about killed me, and I don't even know how I feel about everything. Am I sad? happy? relieved? thankful? depressed? how about confused? holy crap.

I feel like running home, and when I say home I mean NOT SoCal - Midwest? Paris? Thailand?

ugh! I just don't want to be here right now. 

46 days...

prayer

praying for good results today. 

survival

Surviving this quarter may be the death of me. 

48 days left until I graduate!

woot. 

smile

Hello 22!

Well the birthday weekend is over... sad times. :\

I really had an amazing day. I woke up randomly early on Saturday morning and got ready to go to Glen Ivy for the day (you get in for free on your birthday - just show your id... just a note for all of you) :) Kristi and Brandon came and met us here and we then headed to paradise.

(The view from where we were sitting)

(Lunch)

(and dessert... :) )

(Us after sitting in the sun all day)

(I could live here... seriously.)

After spending the day there we headed back to the house for dinner with the family and friends. We ordered pizza and just spent time catching up and chitchatting with everyone. I feel like school has tried to thiefed (yep, I say thiefed) all of my social and friend time, so it was nice to sit and just enjoy their amazing company. :)

(Red Velvet Little Cups)

(Pina Colada Little Cups)

Yvette and Darren brought the delicious Little Cups and they were so so so yummy! I had to hide them to save them from being completely gone. :) 

(The World's Best Lemon Cake)

Kristi and Brandon - enjoying the Red Velvet Little Cups

I have the bestest friends... they make me smile. :)

Krissy and I with Paul & Melody Chambers, they've been a constant in our lives since forever. Birthdays wouldn't be complete without them there. We love them. :)

My awesome gift from Yvette and Darren. :)

Yvette knows me very well... all of my favorite things! All with Post-its!!!!

So so cool! 

(uh-oh.... )

My friends have amazing taste! Thank you Tatiana!! :)

I really really loved this weekend, thank you everyone! I wish I didn't have to go back to focusing on school, I miss my friends. I'm looking forward to school being over with, summer being here and getting to spend days at the beach, at a coffee house or just sitting around eating pizza (and delicious little cups) and just talking. 

I love you all - hello year 22!

counting down

So here I am... awake... counting down the last few hours of my 21st year. 

Everyone in the house is asleep - so festive. lol 

My parents insisted on taking us out to dinner tonight. Twas nice. 

Tomorrow I'm celebrating by spending the day at Glen Ivy... sleeping in the sun. 

I'm looking forward to a day of just relaxing - although I'm going to have to take my school books with me to read. Hopefully I'll get talked out of it and just relaxing. :)

Just a few more hours... sigh.

what the heezy?

there is a girl in my methods class sitting near me who is trimming her hair with toe-nail clippers during lecture... what the heezy?? lol entertainment at its finest.

puppy dog...

I think this pup has turned into a full time job - 

he ate 2 pens today

attacked the cat multiple times

stole my moms socks and scattered all the shoes in the house to multiple places

and continues to try to sit in my lap while I'm trying to study. 

:\

But one thing is for sure, he is definitely a camera/computer lover. 

homesick for a place that has never been "home"

Due to some recent events in my life I have found myself day dreaming of a different place and time. 

I didn't think it was possible to become homesick for a place that I've never actually lived, but I have to say that I am officially homesick for Europe. There was a freedom to be me there that I don't have here... and I miss that.

I'm just going to hold on to the fact that things will change for the better - I need to believe that.

Someday.... someday.

What is my life like on a Monday night?

Yep this is my life now. 

I wish I could show you all my daily planner - The next 10 weeks have every line filled and even sticky notes to keep everything in order and hopefully done one time. 

Today was ok - my nose and throat are feeling better. yay! Its just my head. 

Are these senior classes supposed to make you depressed?? My NSCI class was all about our negative effect on the environment and basically how we're destroying the world. great. :\ and my Senior Capstone class made me think heavy heavy thoughts... too much for a sudafed filled brain. 

So here I am, sitting here at my desk (which is covered in books and papers) trying to just organize my night of studying - Pray I get it all done! Thankfully I get to run to Barnes and Noble to get my additional readings for two of my classes and I have my audio books (Twilight and such) to keep me company on these study-filled evenings. :) 

4 more days until the weekend!!! :) 

end of week 1

Week 1 of 10 is over and boy it was a crazy one!!! 

I don't know what I was thinking taking 21 units... what the heezy? 

NSCI - Humans and the Environment, Senior Capstone, Intro to Physics (sigh), Methods of Research AND Abnormal Psychology. 

Yep, the load is as stressful as it sounds. BUT I'm so very happy to have my friends and family. 

I got lucky and have Yvette as my Methods partner and we got Suzanne Mallery as our 

faculty advisor for our project. 

I'll be done with my Internship hours at the Children's Hospital by mid-May, just in time for the paper to be done and turned in (on the 22nd)... I have a service learning requirement for one of my classes so I'm gardening on Sunday mornings now, making garden boxes for the Disabled in Riverside. Physics is the SAME class I took in High School! So why do I have to repeat the information? Thankfully Kendra is in the class... I wish I could have followed Nick and dropped. But no, I'm stuck. 

Friday night I got really sick, my body finally gave in to all the exposure I've had so I've been down all weekend. At least it hit me when I had a day - but now its 10:30 Sunday night and I still have a high fever and can barely talk from my sore throat. boo. 

I've been reading for Abnormal Psych for 5 hours and I don't feel like I've even made a dent in the assigned chapters for Tuesday night's class. 

I'm really excited for the upcoming weeks... So many things are happening and I'm anxious to enjoy the celebrations ahead and feel accomplished at the end of this last quarter of undergrad. :) 

Its officially APRIL

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